It's looking like the weather predictors are going to be right and it might actually be an El Nino winter. I hope so! We need the water in CA and I do love listening to the rain! Unfortunately, I seem to be using a couple hours of rain as an excuse to not get outside and do my run/walk. Technically I am on week 5 day 3, but it has taken me about 7 weeks to get there. It all started with the little tweak in my back and continued with rain excuses. So I've only been doing 2 run/walks per week. I wish I was more disappointed, but I'm just happy to be doing something. I'm still getting at least 30min of exercise in daily so that's the most important thing! Another excuse I keep using is that the dogs are a pain in my butt out there. But they need their exercise too and I don't know that it is a good idea for me to do too much while I'm on such a low calorie diet. I do get dizzy and even more hungry when I have more than exercise. What I suppose I should do is take the dogs out for my warm up, bring them back in and head out for my run/walk and then give them a longer walk in the evening. Or vice versa-do their longer walk in the am and my run/walk in the evening. It's only 30min 3 times a week after all!! So silly! So that's why I think it is just laziness. :-)
I am starting to feel a little like it is my last semester in the school year again. You know that point? Where it's so close you can taste it, but not quite close enough? I have been at it for 122 days according to My Fitness Pal. It gave me the 120 day streak 2 days ago, so that's probably an estimate. :-) I have 45 days left until I start the 4 week transition. Putting it like that makes it look like I am well on my way to transition. Yeah! Just over a month. Less than a travel nurse assignment. Phew...I have bought a couple new spices and will try out some new recipes the next few weeks. That ought to keep me going. I finally bought whole bean coffee so that I can use my grinder and french press. I didn't quite make grind enough beans. I'll have to work on that. I used the calculations on the kettle and the grinder, but then realized that I don't really know if the kettle thinks of a cup as 6oz or 8oz or 5oz or any of the other ways cups of coffee and tea are measured. Ah well, tomorrow I will use more beans (or less water).
I've also started researching kitchen equipment to buy. I had made a list of rewards several weeks ago and haven't bought any yet. I could have bought 2. One of the things I'm rethinking is the steamer. I think I might combine several rewards and get a fancy counter top multi-cooker or electric steamer. The kitchen aid looks really nice, but it's pricy. There are cheaper options, but since it's a reward I want the best. I think the 200lb mark I will get that reward. That way I will have it for transition week!! The other reward that I haven't bought yet but really want to before transition is cute bowls and plates. The only thing I was thinking on the plates is they can wait because I do have those smaller ones, so they aren't needed for transition. SO, I think the other thing I will get before then is my cute smaller bowls. I might even just buy one here and there and have a cute little collection of mismatch bowls. The other thing I really want to buy is a spiralizer. I could get the fancy Inspiralized one, but there are cheaper options that work as well too. That can be a later goal as I know they really just want us having steamed veggies when we enter transition. I really think I will get good use out of the multi cooker. Esp since you can do grains, veggies and meat all at once. We can't have grains for a while, but eventually. I feel like I could have everything prepped the day before and even in the steamer dishes and then just throw it in when I get home from work, turn on the steamer take the pups out for 15-20min and then come home and eat. See? I have it all planned. That's the key to success right? I'm going a little crazy reading all these healthy recipes. I should start pinning them for the future.
Other than starting to feel slightly bored, I am doing well. I have cut back on the fluids and I plan to really add up my fluids for the day and not just water. I think that cutting back a little has helped with the dizziness. It has been better for sure. I'll keep it up and we will see.
On a non-diet topic...I can't remember if I mentioned I took out the personal loan to pay off my credit cards. I will be sticking to a very strict cash budget for the next 18mo which will hopefully continue after so that the money I was paying for the debt can be saved for a down payment on a condo in about 6-7 years. I could save 100000 by then which is just enough of a down payment in the bay area! That's almost an entire house or a 50% down payment in Kansas City! So crazy! It would actually be a decent down payment in SoCal as well if I'm ready to make that move by then. I will be only 15 years from retirement by then after all!
Yikes!! One day at a time....geez...
Sunday, December 13, 2015
Thursday, December 10, 2015
Week 10 and Dizziness!
I feel like I have been really lucky so far. I haven't had issues with the supplements, I haven't lost any hair, I haven't suffered headaches (other than a couple times I didn't drink enough fluids) and my hunger has been controlled by my plan to have a glass of water and wait and then have my product if I am still hungry. I would say I get hungry every 2hrs or 2.5 depending on my fitness that day. I think it's best to start that habit now so that I keep that habit when I move to real food (in 7 weeks!!)
So that brings me to why I am posting about dizziness...I have been dizzy since Monday. At first I attributed it to too much coffee on Monday, but it seems the reality is more like too many fluids. We were instructed to consume 64oz of fluid in addition to the fluids we get from the products. This would mean that if I do 5 liquid products/day I'm getting about 104oz of fluids plus a couple here and there for some other fluids I don't count (like the 8oz I use for the metamucil or the 4oz I mix up for my coffee shakes since I add it to 8oz of coffee). Anyway, I emailed the MD today and the response I got was to go back to 3 shakes, 2 bars and 1 soup. I did that until last Thursday. Basically, if I'm getting too many fluids, my sodium is probably a little low although my labs are ok. So I'm gonna try it. And since I don't have enough bars this week to really test it I will just eliminate a glass of water.
On to more exciting news...I am down 28.6lbs. I am quite happy with that. And I'm still on track to be halfway to my ultimate goal by the time I transition to food. I am not as nervous about transition as I think I should be. I think one of the reasons is that I'm really good at counting calories. What I am not good at is eating consistently throughout the day so that I'm not starving by the time I leave work. So that will be a big goal for me. I have never really been more than 20lbs overweight before and that was only twice, the pounds came off fast and although I gained it back I also lost it right away again. The times I gained it back were times in my life that I went through some depressing things. So my other big goal will be to not use food as comfort! I will have to be motivated to go out and run with the dogs instead. :-)
We very briefly talked about transition in class this week. Someone asked so our facilitator told us. She says the first week will be 3oz of protein and 2cups of cooked vegetables...That is a ton of cooked veggies! From what I had read online it was like 1/2cup. I'm a little worried about the volume. Especially because it is supposed to be steamed. I'm hoping they will tell us steamed, but that we can add no calorie seasonings even if we can't add oil. 2 cups of asparagus seems like a lot. :-) I might become the queen of cauliflower mash. Ha!
One of the guys in our class mentioned not seeing himself as smaller. In a way I wish I was having that issue now! I seem to see myself as smaller than I really am. :-) One tip for him was to draw the outline of your body on a piece of paper and then have someone trace you and see the difference. I've always thought that is an interesting task, but I think not needed for me at this point. Another suggestion was that he go buy clothes that fit! And I suggested he look at his face in pictures.
Someone cheated this week. She had lima beans and a cookie. Another lady cheated with a taco. At least she did it right. :-) I don't plan to cheat at all! I feel like I would just regret it if I don't follow the plan to a "T." In my head I would always wonder what would have happened if I hadn't and think maybe I would have lost more weight. I already regret not getting 10000 steps per day every day! I think I am getting close to 9000 most days now. I guess I should look at that closer next week! I am doing about 2 days of run/walk the last 2 weeks. The reason for this week was the dizziness. Last week was laziness. But at least I still walked. :-)
Guess that's all I've got for tonight!
So that brings me to why I am posting about dizziness...I have been dizzy since Monday. At first I attributed it to too much coffee on Monday, but it seems the reality is more like too many fluids. We were instructed to consume 64oz of fluid in addition to the fluids we get from the products. This would mean that if I do 5 liquid products/day I'm getting about 104oz of fluids plus a couple here and there for some other fluids I don't count (like the 8oz I use for the metamucil or the 4oz I mix up for my coffee shakes since I add it to 8oz of coffee). Anyway, I emailed the MD today and the response I got was to go back to 3 shakes, 2 bars and 1 soup. I did that until last Thursday. Basically, if I'm getting too many fluids, my sodium is probably a little low although my labs are ok. So I'm gonna try it. And since I don't have enough bars this week to really test it I will just eliminate a glass of water.
On to more exciting news...I am down 28.6lbs. I am quite happy with that. And I'm still on track to be halfway to my ultimate goal by the time I transition to food. I am not as nervous about transition as I think I should be. I think one of the reasons is that I'm really good at counting calories. What I am not good at is eating consistently throughout the day so that I'm not starving by the time I leave work. So that will be a big goal for me. I have never really been more than 20lbs overweight before and that was only twice, the pounds came off fast and although I gained it back I also lost it right away again. The times I gained it back were times in my life that I went through some depressing things. So my other big goal will be to not use food as comfort! I will have to be motivated to go out and run with the dogs instead. :-)
We very briefly talked about transition in class this week. Someone asked so our facilitator told us. She says the first week will be 3oz of protein and 2cups of cooked vegetables...That is a ton of cooked veggies! From what I had read online it was like 1/2cup. I'm a little worried about the volume. Especially because it is supposed to be steamed. I'm hoping they will tell us steamed, but that we can add no calorie seasonings even if we can't add oil. 2 cups of asparagus seems like a lot. :-) I might become the queen of cauliflower mash. Ha!
One of the guys in our class mentioned not seeing himself as smaller. In a way I wish I was having that issue now! I seem to see myself as smaller than I really am. :-) One tip for him was to draw the outline of your body on a piece of paper and then have someone trace you and see the difference. I've always thought that is an interesting task, but I think not needed for me at this point. Another suggestion was that he go buy clothes that fit! And I suggested he look at his face in pictures.
Someone cheated this week. She had lima beans and a cookie. Another lady cheated with a taco. At least she did it right. :-) I don't plan to cheat at all! I feel like I would just regret it if I don't follow the plan to a "T." In my head I would always wonder what would have happened if I hadn't and think maybe I would have lost more weight. I already regret not getting 10000 steps per day every day! I think I am getting close to 9000 most days now. I guess I should look at that closer next week! I am doing about 2 days of run/walk the last 2 weeks. The reason for this week was the dizziness. Last week was laziness. But at least I still walked. :-)
Guess that's all I've got for tonight!
Friday, December 4, 2015
If everyday were like today...
I am logging my shakes, soups and bars in My Fitness Pal. The best part of the day (and probably most motivating) is when you complete the entry and it says "If everyday were like today you would weight *** in 5 weeks." Seriously...I love that! I don't really know how accurate it is, but it must be somewhat. :-) I do have to "cheat" and lie to MFP a little bit by doing a "Quick Add" of 30-40 calories, because MFP doesn't want to support anorexia or unhealthy diets so they won't let you enter calories less than 1000. Ah well. I'm ok with that sort of cheating.
So the last couple of nights I've been told by MFP that I have the potential to be 198lbs in 5 weeks! The significance is obvious...I will finally be under 200lbs. I spent all of my life under 200lbs until I starting gaining weight when my BFF was battling and passed away from cancer in 2008/9. I was living with her, her husband and her daughter and helping them out at the time. I sprained both of my ankles that winter and then at that point I had already gained about 40lbs from my sort of "normal" weight. By normal I guess I mean the weight I used to think I was fat, but was actually healthy. I looked good in clothes, I could wear what I wanted, but I was always wanting to be model thin. That weight is 155. Anyway, I always go on about when I gained every pound and it's probably weird that I can remember them. If I get back to 198 then I will have officially lost all of the weight that I gained in that very sad time in my life. The 40 I gained first happened when I first went away to be a travel nurse. My friend had just been diagnosed (2007) and I moved to Huntington Beach for a 13wk travel assignment. I started out gaining about 10lbs and thought it was the end of the world or something. I had gained and lost that 10lbs a few times-and it didn't even put me in the overweight category!! Anyway, after that 10lbs I took a 5mo travel assignment in San Diego and gained another 30. I will never work night shift again!! Every night shift assignment resulted in weight gain for me! Due to lack of activity, depression from never seeing sunlight and feeling the need to eat constantly when I wasn't asleep. So there you go....My ultimate high weight was actually about 255, so really a 100lb gain. I managed to lose about 30 of those pounds but gained them back when I...took another night shift job!! Oops! Ah well, I know what I did wrong and I am determined to never lose control again!
I was thinking the other day that I feel like I wasted the years between Oct 2009 and now. So 6 years of my life gone! I can't look back-I can only look forward. I did see a lot and do a lot in those years and I want to revisit many of those places and enjoy them even more when I can move my body better!!! I was also thinking that there are 2 groups of people who know me. The ones who knew me before the gain (and during part of it) and the ones who have only known me fat. I feel like the ones that have only known me fat are only going to have known me overweight are going to always think of me as the fat girl who lost a bunch of weight. They will say things like "oh yeah she lost like 100lbs once." The thought of this terrifies me. I am slightly afraid that when I lose the weight I am going to want to move somewhere no one knows me again...or perhaps somewhere like San Diego or Orange County where I know a couple people who knew me in the in between phase. Arghhh...I guess we will see what life brings in the next year. I am also trying to think of all the things that losing weight will help me do here! One of which is find the perfect nursing role for me. It will likely not be with the clinic I am at now, but I will have the confidence to do what I want and to really think about what that is! It should make me proud that I lost all that weight and I can't keep thinking about the past. I will also admit that I let me old friendships in KC go because I was embarrassed to let them see how much weight I gained. :-( There is also nothing I can do about that but move forward, maybe try and rekindle those friendships when I return for holidays. Or just be ok with have Facebook friendships with them.
I didn't plan to write all of that, but I guess that's what journaling/blogging is all about, huh? :-)
Moving on and moving forward...and hoping to enter the new year in almost a new "century"of weight. :-)
So the last couple of nights I've been told by MFP that I have the potential to be 198lbs in 5 weeks! The significance is obvious...I will finally be under 200lbs. I spent all of my life under 200lbs until I starting gaining weight when my BFF was battling and passed away from cancer in 2008/9. I was living with her, her husband and her daughter and helping them out at the time. I sprained both of my ankles that winter and then at that point I had already gained about 40lbs from my sort of "normal" weight. By normal I guess I mean the weight I used to think I was fat, but was actually healthy. I looked good in clothes, I could wear what I wanted, but I was always wanting to be model thin. That weight is 155. Anyway, I always go on about when I gained every pound and it's probably weird that I can remember them. If I get back to 198 then I will have officially lost all of the weight that I gained in that very sad time in my life. The 40 I gained first happened when I first went away to be a travel nurse. My friend had just been diagnosed (2007) and I moved to Huntington Beach for a 13wk travel assignment. I started out gaining about 10lbs and thought it was the end of the world or something. I had gained and lost that 10lbs a few times-and it didn't even put me in the overweight category!! Anyway, after that 10lbs I took a 5mo travel assignment in San Diego and gained another 30. I will never work night shift again!! Every night shift assignment resulted in weight gain for me! Due to lack of activity, depression from never seeing sunlight and feeling the need to eat constantly when I wasn't asleep. So there you go....My ultimate high weight was actually about 255, so really a 100lb gain. I managed to lose about 30 of those pounds but gained them back when I...took another night shift job!! Oops! Ah well, I know what I did wrong and I am determined to never lose control again!
I was thinking the other day that I feel like I wasted the years between Oct 2009 and now. So 6 years of my life gone! I can't look back-I can only look forward. I did see a lot and do a lot in those years and I want to revisit many of those places and enjoy them even more when I can move my body better!!! I was also thinking that there are 2 groups of people who know me. The ones who knew me before the gain (and during part of it) and the ones who have only known me fat. I feel like the ones that have only known me fat are only going to have known me overweight are going to always think of me as the fat girl who lost a bunch of weight. They will say things like "oh yeah she lost like 100lbs once." The thought of this terrifies me. I am slightly afraid that when I lose the weight I am going to want to move somewhere no one knows me again...or perhaps somewhere like San Diego or Orange County where I know a couple people who knew me in the in between phase. Arghhh...I guess we will see what life brings in the next year. I am also trying to think of all the things that losing weight will help me do here! One of which is find the perfect nursing role for me. It will likely not be with the clinic I am at now, but I will have the confidence to do what I want and to really think about what that is! It should make me proud that I lost all that weight and I can't keep thinking about the past. I will also admit that I let me old friendships in KC go because I was embarrassed to let them see how much weight I gained. :-( There is also nothing I can do about that but move forward, maybe try and rekindle those friendships when I return for holidays. Or just be ok with have Facebook friendships with them.
I didn't plan to write all of that, but I guess that's what journaling/blogging is all about, huh? :-)
Moving on and moving forward...and hoping to enter the new year in almost a new "century"of weight. :-)
Thursday, December 3, 2015
Halfway there!!!
And by halfway I just mean halfway through with the full fast or "active weight loss" phase. Yeah!! It feels good to be there!
So here is a summary:
Optifast products: 6 per day...I typically have 4 shakes, 1 bar and 1 soup
Cheats: ZERO!!!!!!!
Water: at least 64oz per day, often times 72oz plus the fluid from the shakes. :-)
Weight at start: 241.6
Todays weight: 215.8
Total weight lost: 25.8lbs
3.7lbs/week
Weeks of product: 7
I'm somewhat surprised that I'm averaging 3.7lbs/week. I thought I would stay closer to the 2-3lb range. I do know that I lost more the first week so it ups the average, but I guess I thought it would even out by then. :-) Yeah!
I took the dogs on a walk this morning. I can't seem to make myself run/walk on Thursdays. I just don't get enough sleep because I need a couple hours to wind down at night and I don't think I get it when I don't get home til 8. Ah well. As long as I walk! I also parked at the free lot for the hospital that is about a 10min walk away. Doing both of those things brought me very close to 10000 steps per day so I think I'll keep that up.
I still feel like I should be more nervous to either go back to food or maintain, but I'm really just focusing on getting the job done! I've lost weight counting calories before so I'm not too worried about that part especially since I think I will have momentum going into it. As far as maintenance goes, I'll see when I get there!
A running coach came to talk to us last night. I've seen his car around town and I've been curious. During the maintenance phase Kaiser has lifestyle courses. One is going to be a running group. I have a feeling I'll be joining that one.
Other than that not much is going on. I suppose that's a good thing!!
So here is a summary:
Optifast products: 6 per day...I typically have 4 shakes, 1 bar and 1 soup
Cheats: ZERO!!!!!!!
Water: at least 64oz per day, often times 72oz plus the fluid from the shakes. :-)
Weight at start: 241.6
Todays weight: 215.8
Total weight lost: 25.8lbs
3.7lbs/week
Weeks of product: 7
I'm somewhat surprised that I'm averaging 3.7lbs/week. I thought I would stay closer to the 2-3lb range. I do know that I lost more the first week so it ups the average, but I guess I thought it would even out by then. :-) Yeah!
I took the dogs on a walk this morning. I can't seem to make myself run/walk on Thursdays. I just don't get enough sleep because I need a couple hours to wind down at night and I don't think I get it when I don't get home til 8. Ah well. As long as I walk! I also parked at the free lot for the hospital that is about a 10min walk away. Doing both of those things brought me very close to 10000 steps per day so I think I'll keep that up.
I still feel like I should be more nervous to either go back to food or maintain, but I'm really just focusing on getting the job done! I've lost weight counting calories before so I'm not too worried about that part especially since I think I will have momentum going into it. As far as maintenance goes, I'll see when I get there!
A running coach came to talk to us last night. I've seen his car around town and I've been curious. During the maintenance phase Kaiser has lifestyle courses. One is going to be a running group. I have a feeling I'll be joining that one.
Other than that not much is going on. I suppose that's a good thing!!
Sunday, November 29, 2015
Any new blogs out there??
When I was looking into this program I was on a hunt for blogs, specifically success stories. I read the ones that I could find, but I'm finding that this blog doesn't even show up on searches. Does anyone know how to search in a better way?? Or maybe there really aren't new blogs? I think what is hard about the old ones is that many stop at some point after the blogger enters maintenance and then starts gaining weight. I'm sure it would be hard to continue to blog at that point. I hope I succeed and a year after maintenance I start blogging about all of the benefits to losing the weight and keeping it off! Or something similar!
If anyone out there is reading this and has found any other newer blogs that appear inspiring let me know!
After Wednesday I will be halfway through full fast!! If I go buy my current weight I am in the upper 210s and will hopefully cross below 215 in a week and a half or so! I know I shouldn't set deadlines for weight loss goals, but I'm thinking of it more like a prediction. :-) I'm really hoping to have lost half of the weight by end of phase 1! If I can dip below 200 before transition starts I will be super happy. I remember a few years ago after I left my travel nurse assignment in San Diego I went to Seattle with some of my nurse friends from SD and I told one of them that I was horrified that my weight had ballooned up to almost a new "century." That number was 190-something. I remember being devastated and miserable. I thought my weight would never get that high. Previously when I had thought I was "fat" my weight was around 165-175 which really isn't too far into the overweight range for my height of 5'8". I never thought I would enter the obese category. I feel like I have lost the last 5 or so years of my life being at this weight because it has held me back from doing things I enjoy and meeting new people in the cities I traveled to. Even here it has kept me from going out and enjoying what I want to! There is so much to love about the bay area and I need to get out and explore more! Anyway, I didn't come here to write about any of that. And I can't think about what I haven't done, but I can focus on taking this 1 day at a time and think about all of the physical things I want to do when I meet my goals! I even took my bike out the other day (to ride to the movies) and I was so much more comfortable on it then 20lbs ago. I'm still a chicken and afraid to fall, but feeling lighter definitely helped!!
Signing off...keep up the hard work and let me know if you know of any blogs for people starting out on this journey or recently transitioned and successfully maintaining!!
Angie
If anyone out there is reading this and has found any other newer blogs that appear inspiring let me know!
After Wednesday I will be halfway through full fast!! If I go buy my current weight I am in the upper 210s and will hopefully cross below 215 in a week and a half or so! I know I shouldn't set deadlines for weight loss goals, but I'm thinking of it more like a prediction. :-) I'm really hoping to have lost half of the weight by end of phase 1! If I can dip below 200 before transition starts I will be super happy. I remember a few years ago after I left my travel nurse assignment in San Diego I went to Seattle with some of my nurse friends from SD and I told one of them that I was horrified that my weight had ballooned up to almost a new "century." That number was 190-something. I remember being devastated and miserable. I thought my weight would never get that high. Previously when I had thought I was "fat" my weight was around 165-175 which really isn't too far into the overweight range for my height of 5'8". I never thought I would enter the obese category. I feel like I have lost the last 5 or so years of my life being at this weight because it has held me back from doing things I enjoy and meeting new people in the cities I traveled to. Even here it has kept me from going out and enjoying what I want to! There is so much to love about the bay area and I need to get out and explore more! Anyway, I didn't come here to write about any of that. And I can't think about what I haven't done, but I can focus on taking this 1 day at a time and think about all of the physical things I want to do when I meet my goals! I even took my bike out the other day (to ride to the movies) and I was so much more comfortable on it then 20lbs ago. I'm still a chicken and afraid to fall, but feeling lighter definitely helped!!
Signing off...keep up the hard work and let me know if you know of any blogs for people starting out on this journey or recently transitioned and successfully maintaining!!
Angie
Thursday, November 26, 2015
Thanksgiving....
Happy Thanksgiving! I feel like a cheater...BUT it's not from food. It's because I'm choosing to spend the day alone. I didn't want to fly back home to KS mostly because I have a teenage niece and I don't think it's appropriate to share a diet like this with her. I might get some backlash for that but here is why: I grew up with an obese mother. I have memories of her dieting as I was growing up-I could be imagining it but I vaguely remember things like grapefruit, cabbage and some paperwork so I know I was aware of her doing this as a child. All the time I was growing up I was very thin (as in kids made fun of me for being really skinny-and I know some people who might read this might think oh, what a horrible problem, but really everyone has their own struggles and we shouldn't judge). Anyway, I digress. I was really thin and an extremely picky eater. I for sure had some sensory issues with textures and my mom tells me once she force fed me spaghetti (that I don't remember, but I must deep down because I didn't eat spaghetti happily until I became an adult). It wasn't until I got to college that I started really gaining weight. Even then I was always in a healthy weight range, but thought I was overweight. I think many of those issues go back to watching my mom struggle. I remember telling her once when we were camping that I was always going to walk around with my stomach sucked in. These aren't healthy thoughts and I don't think any kid should ever have to think about dieting. They should be given healthy servings of whole foods. We really shouldn't keep junk in the house and processed food shouldn't be their staples. Unfortunately I work in a pediatric gastroenterology clinic where we are forced to have a fatty liver clinic and it appalls me that this clinic is even necessary! I'm rambling again. My point here is this, my niece is also thin and very tall. Her friends are shorter and weigh in the 100lb range which is appropriate for their height. She is around 135 and is 5'7" so well within a healthy range for her height. Somehow she already thinks that she needs to be 100lbs. She also came home from health class one day saying that she was told she's only supposed to have 500calories/day. Clearly she misunderstood. So we have a beautiful 13yr old kid who is already having body issues and has been surrounded by her mother and my mother who are constantly talking about food and dieting. Most of the time she knew me when I lived there I was a healthy weight, but half her life I have been obese. When I see her again I want her to see me making healthy choices so that she will continue to make healthy choices and not think she needs to ever do a rapid weight loss plan. I just don't want her to focus. If my other sister and I are her only 2 positive food influences that's ok as long as she has 2! My plan is to go back in March for my nephews' birthdays and be very close to a healthy weight and enjoy my time with them without the stress of the holidays.
My friends here that are like my second family sometimes have people over, but I explained to them a long time ago that I wouldn't be spending it with them this year. They will survive and are going to dinner at a lodge near the ocean with their other second family. :-) I feel like I'm supposed to feel sad to miss out and not be eating, etc but I don't. I'm losing weight and feeling stronger. I know that it is only 1 Thanksgiving and 1 Christmas. I know that in the future I will be able to enjoy making healthy choices at holiday dinners and have more fun with the kids. SO there it is. My cheat is avoiding the holidays. :-) Christmas movies and a walk with my dogs is on the schedule for today. Maybe I will venture out to a movie in the theater, but right now I'm pretty comfy in my pajamas. :-)
Weight update!
I have finished week 7 of the program (6 weeks of full fast). I have not cheated one time. I have slacked on water drinking a couple of times and when that happens I get headaches so I'm trying to make it a priority. TOM is this week so I was slightly worried about what I would lose, but not because I knew if it was a small loss I would make up for it the following week. Gotta love being a woman. Plus they say everyone plateaus at a some point.
The verdict is...
This weeks weight loss 2.8lbs
Total weight loss 23.4lbs
So I'm right on track still to lose 2-3lbs/week which is my personal hope/goal. I've been walking the dogs 30min per day minimum. I've been moving more at work. I've been doing my run/walk. I did get behind so I'm on week 4. Call it laziness, but I knew I would be off 4 days so I thought I would save the last 2 days for this long weekend rather than do it with the dogs. They make it hard! Too much pulling in other directions, etc.
I wish I could say I have a magic formula for the shakes, bars, soups, but it is what it is. I'm good until people say "oh I could never do that" or "oh that must be so hard." Then, I start to doubt myself that I can finish, but I can't continue to let other people influence what I think I can do!! So I shut down those voices with I already completed 7 weeks, I'm almost halfway through and now I'm on the downhill. One thing that is good is that I will be moving into continued weight loss with transition so it should keep me interested and will probably come at a time when I will finally be bored.
We just started bringing up transition a little last week. I think some of the things I'm going to try now will help me. For example, my goal is to eat at my table 3 nights this week starting tonight! That should help me with mindful eating. I think it's ok to text while I eat just because a lot of people would be having dinner with their family then and be talking so how is texting different. I'm not sure I am ready to turn off the TV. So for now it is just sit at the table, take my time (15-20min) and feel what it feels like. I think I've been sort of practicing that now. I have been trying to pay attention to every single bite. OH! Also, I have passed the 220 mark so I get my first reward! I decided that the first thing I'm going to buy is cute small bowls! I can use them in my eating soup at the table plan and hopefully it will keep me interested. :-) I plan to go to our cute shopping street here and go to this little boutique store I really like! I think that's all I have to say today!
My friends here that are like my second family sometimes have people over, but I explained to them a long time ago that I wouldn't be spending it with them this year. They will survive and are going to dinner at a lodge near the ocean with their other second family. :-) I feel like I'm supposed to feel sad to miss out and not be eating, etc but I don't. I'm losing weight and feeling stronger. I know that it is only 1 Thanksgiving and 1 Christmas. I know that in the future I will be able to enjoy making healthy choices at holiday dinners and have more fun with the kids. SO there it is. My cheat is avoiding the holidays. :-) Christmas movies and a walk with my dogs is on the schedule for today. Maybe I will venture out to a movie in the theater, but right now I'm pretty comfy in my pajamas. :-)
Weight update!
I have finished week 7 of the program (6 weeks of full fast). I have not cheated one time. I have slacked on water drinking a couple of times and when that happens I get headaches so I'm trying to make it a priority. TOM is this week so I was slightly worried about what I would lose, but not because I knew if it was a small loss I would make up for it the following week. Gotta love being a woman. Plus they say everyone plateaus at a some point.
The verdict is...
This weeks weight loss 2.8lbs
Total weight loss 23.4lbs
So I'm right on track still to lose 2-3lbs/week which is my personal hope/goal. I've been walking the dogs 30min per day minimum. I've been moving more at work. I've been doing my run/walk. I did get behind so I'm on week 4. Call it laziness, but I knew I would be off 4 days so I thought I would save the last 2 days for this long weekend rather than do it with the dogs. They make it hard! Too much pulling in other directions, etc.
I wish I could say I have a magic formula for the shakes, bars, soups, but it is what it is. I'm good until people say "oh I could never do that" or "oh that must be so hard." Then, I start to doubt myself that I can finish, but I can't continue to let other people influence what I think I can do!! So I shut down those voices with I already completed 7 weeks, I'm almost halfway through and now I'm on the downhill. One thing that is good is that I will be moving into continued weight loss with transition so it should keep me interested and will probably come at a time when I will finally be bored.
We just started bringing up transition a little last week. I think some of the things I'm going to try now will help me. For example, my goal is to eat at my table 3 nights this week starting tonight! That should help me with mindful eating. I think it's ok to text while I eat just because a lot of people would be having dinner with their family then and be talking so how is texting different. I'm not sure I am ready to turn off the TV. So for now it is just sit at the table, take my time (15-20min) and feel what it feels like. I think I've been sort of practicing that now. I have been trying to pay attention to every single bite. OH! Also, I have passed the 220 mark so I get my first reward! I decided that the first thing I'm going to buy is cute small bowls! I can use them in my eating soup at the table plan and hopefully it will keep me interested. :-) I plan to go to our cute shopping street here and go to this little boutique store I really like! I think that's all I have to say today!
Sunday, November 22, 2015
Hungry today...
I have only had a few moments where I would say I am really truly just hungry. I've had regular, it's about time for me to eat hunger and I have a product and all is good. But today for some reason I'm having stomach growling, headache hunger. I wonder if it's about T.O.M cause I know that in general your metabolism goes up around then. It could also because I did week 4, day 1 of the C25K app first thing. I think I ran faster than usual and it was job 3m, walk 90s, jog 5m, walk 2.5m, jog 3m, all 90s, jog 5m. So a total of 16min jogging vs 9min previously. So it's entirely possible I was hungry, or didn't drink enough water first. The water part would explain the headache, of course so would hunger. Who knows...I am trying to get some fluids in and have moved my products to 2hrs apt for the most part today. I've also been skimping on the fiber the last few days which I know can make me feel less full. I'm trying to make sure it's true hunger and not mouth hunger (from boredom, emotions, etc.) I'm not really feeling stressed about anything. I might be a little bored, but I truly feel like it is real hunger. So water it is! If I'm hungry 20m after the water I think I'll make a tea. I really like to save my soup for at least 5pm.
It is lab/med check week at Kaiser. I went today to get the labs. Hopefully they are all good. The HH is back and totally fine, on the high side of fine so that also leads me to believe I might be slightly dehydrated. We'll see what the rest show.
I weighed myself this am (before the exercise madness) and I'm 219 this am. Whoop! Of course it only really matters what my weight is on Thursday am. I have a feeling it will be about 219 or maybe even 218. That would be great! If I'm at 220 or less I get to buy new bowls to eat my soup in. I'm pretty excited. Silly I know, but I never really let myself buy cute dining things hurrah! We are supposed to come up with a goal for group this week. It's supposed to be a smart goal and we are going to tell everyone. I think instead of doing an exercise goal I'm going to sit at my table to eat my soup. The obvious benefit is to stop mindless eating. The secondary benefit will be no more dogs staring at me hoping for a drop of soup. :-)
Not much else is happening. I feel very fortunate that I get to do this in an apt all alone and not surrounded by people all the time. Good thing I'm somewhat of an introvert or I would be going bananas. :-)
It is lab/med check week at Kaiser. I went today to get the labs. Hopefully they are all good. The HH is back and totally fine, on the high side of fine so that also leads me to believe I might be slightly dehydrated. We'll see what the rest show.
I weighed myself this am (before the exercise madness) and I'm 219 this am. Whoop! Of course it only really matters what my weight is on Thursday am. I have a feeling it will be about 219 or maybe even 218. That would be great! If I'm at 220 or less I get to buy new bowls to eat my soup in. I'm pretty excited. Silly I know, but I never really let myself buy cute dining things hurrah! We are supposed to come up with a goal for group this week. It's supposed to be a smart goal and we are going to tell everyone. I think instead of doing an exercise goal I'm going to sit at my table to eat my soup. The obvious benefit is to stop mindless eating. The secondary benefit will be no more dogs staring at me hoping for a drop of soup. :-)
Not much else is happening. I feel very fortunate that I get to do this in an apt all alone and not surrounded by people all the time. Good thing I'm somewhat of an introvert or I would be going bananas. :-)
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